Friday, December 31

58 - Happy new year!

An optimist stays up until midnight to see the new year in. A pessimist stays up to make sure the old year leaves.

Happy new year guys! Be careful tonight, and have fun! I'm just going to stay in with my boyfriend and my "brother", I think we'll be playing most of the time :) So drink a few for me plis :)

Wednesday, December 29

57 - All you need is one

Warning: Content might be too lovey-dovey for you. So if your stomach can't handle it, stop reading right away. You've been warned.

I find it weird how one person change everything. You see.. Now that my boyfriend's here, I feel complete. I feel like everything is in place, where it should be. He's only been here since Sunday, yet it actually feels like he's living here, as in living with me. I don't even want to think about the day he's leaving, going back home to Swe-land. This is like one of those dreams you don't want to wake up from, everything is so real, yet so far from reality. Only thing is... This is reality.

Anyway.. Now it's time to slack with the boyfriend, watch Californication and just be. Just breathe the same air, and just be close to each other.

I love you D, I really do. And I'm sorry for complaining about you moving while I'm writing this post, I didn't mean to sound so angry :p

Tuesday, December 28

56 - Dear someone

First of all... I'm sorry I didn't invite you over this time, but you are more than welcome to come over with D the next time :) I'll make sure there'll be enough space (as in bed) for you. And you will get the chance to befriend Eps. And I'm sorry for taking your beloved D away from you, it's not to be mean to you - I've learned to care about you (even tho I'm kinda sure you still hate me, just a littlebit).

Second of all... I will dare to speak for the both of us when I say that we're having a great time! When he got here on Sunday, we decided to just stay in, watch half of two movies and just talk. Yesterday we invited Daniel over for tacos, which also was kinda fun. Daniel ended up on the ground, "rolling" around in the snow trying to win a pissing contest about being most retarded, he won - ofc. Today we've been slacking, hanging out with Espen and Daniel. We went to see the mall and "my" McDonalds.

Later tonight I'm making foodz, just to prove that I've got skills. 'Cause obviously some certain people do not think that I'm pro, and that I can actually make something that will not end up killing you - all by myself.

Hope you're doing fine. I think someone's missing you.


Sunday, December 26

55 - Tomorrow (L)

With a new header and design I'm going to bed, sleeping until I have to get up! :D I have to take a shower and fix my makeup and clothes and and and and GOGO pick up a certain boyfriend at the airport!!! I CAN'T WAIT! :D <3<3<3

If you feel like leaving a comment about my design/header, plis do! NIGHT GUYS!

Saturday, December 25

54 - Blake Lively, not so pr0.

My gorgeous boyfriend is arriving tomorrow, and I can't wait! I wish I could just go to sleep now, and wake up tomorrow with him next to me! But I gotta clean my apartment, and fix stuffs before he gets here, so I can't really just go to sleep. Even tho I decided to watch a movie over cleaning :p I can clean later, it's not like I have to do it right now :p

I watched "The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants", in my opinion it was an OK movie. Blake Lively's acting was OK, but everything I see her in she's got the same role, superstar-girl among other high school girls. That makes me ask, can she do anything else? The story and manuscript was also OK, but not even close to being as well written as "The Town". Blake Lively had a small role in that movie too, not her best work, imo. She was playing the girl that seems to get the guys, as usual, but only this time she was broke (instead of being the rich and famous as we're used to see her in Gossip Girl).
I hope I never end up giving movies cred/crap for being good/bad, there will be many angry people in the world if that ever happens.

Bottom line: Blake Lively should try to get her acting together. She might be pr0 in Gossip Girl as the rich and perfect high school girl, Serena, but that's just not enough. Any good actor should be able to do more than just one role.

Friday, December 24

53 - Merry christmas to you all! :D

I'm leaving now, to see my uncle's daughter aka my youngest cousin. I'm guessing there'll be no time to go home between that and dinner, so I'm leaving for reals. No moar inturnetz fur me for a really long time. But I guess I'll be fine :) I've got my uncle, he's quite the entertainer. And I get to open wrapped gifts!!! Yes, I'm the kid in the family, even my little cousin at the age of 7 is more mature than me when it comes to christmas and gifts. Oh! There goes the doorbell! Gotta run!

So with this picture I'm leaving you to your family.
Have fun, enjoy the food and people.
I know I will.

Thursday, December 23

52 - All I want for christmas is....

To be able to "reinvent" myself, and by that I mean have enough money to throw away all my old clothes, and replace them with treasures like these:

I love this look!

I've always been a huge fan of Gossip Girl's Blair Waldorf, and her style. I wish I could buy all these dresses and matching shoes. So if you would like to donate something to this cause, please do! I need all the help I can get to collect these dresses. *whispering* they're really expensive! 

- All dresses are from

51 - Are goals only meant for aiming?

Thoughts keep running through my head, I'm getting stuck with the bad ones. I hate this time of year, it makes me weak, little and full of dark, depressing thoughts. I shouldn't post such things to my blog, considering it's a public blog - but I find myself doing it, over and over again. It's weird... When I sit down, try to put some words together, hopefully be able to use them for a blog post, English is the one thing that comes naturally to me. I guess I could've written this in Norwegian as well, but it's not the same. I feel like I get to say all the things I need to say when I write in English.
Right now I don't really know what I need to say, or where to go. Every December is like walking in a pitch dark tunnel, not sure if I'm walking in the right direction. There doesn't seem to be a light at the end of the tunnel, or just an end to the tunnel at all. I've been walking here for 10 years now, and I still haven't found my way out. That makes me wonder; will I ever find my way out of this shithole?
My life is, and has always been a mess. I'm a mess. Will I ever be able to figure out what I really want to do in life, and if so - will I ever achieve it? Are my goals just so I've got something to aim for? Or are they for real? Will I ever try to reach them?
I used to believe that we were all put on this planet for a reason, I'm not sure about that anymore. You see.. There's too much wasted talent on this planet. Too much of everything actually. But let's not get off tracks, back to the wasted talents.. I always "knew" that I wanted to be a singer, not for the fame, but because I loved doing it. Singing was the only thing I was certain I knew how to do. I've tried singing competitions, and they're not looking for someone who really wants it, they're just looking for someone to make money from. I don't want to be that person. Am I wasting my talent if I refuse to do something about it, because I don't want to be a sell out that gets her songs from a random record company? I want to be able to write my own songs, but I'm not. The only thing I'm good at is scribbling down my thoughts, like this.
I love writing, and after my 12th year in school I finally got a teacher that "fell in love" with my way of writing. Teachers never really got me, and that made me end up with C's instead of B's or even A's. My 12th year in school I actually aced my Norwegian class and my English class, mostly because of short novels and essays. But I'm not going to be a writer, I could never finish a book - and if I ever did... It would be one hell of a depressing book.
Next year I'm going back to school, and I still haven't completely made up my mind what I want to do. What do I want to study? I've been thinking about something to do with "information and communication technology", which means that I would be working with operation and maintenance of business IT systems, installation, use and maintenance of software, advice, guidance and training in the use of these systems. Summed up pretty quick; service and support when it comes to computers and basically everything that comes with it. But am I right for that kind of work?
I find myself thinking that working as a hairdresser or even a car mechanic is wasting my brain. I actually consider myself as a smart girl, and I want to do something about it. I'd like to expand my horizon, do something unexpected.
I think I slipped off the tracks. This wasn't what I was going to write about, but that's the thing about me blogging, I can write whatever I want to write.

Tuesday, December 21

50 - End me nau, thx!

Great.. I'm home with a fever and everything that comes with it. Feels like I'm burning from the inside and out, but yet every bone in my body is frozen. I can't eat, 'cause honestly I feel like it's going to turn around and shoot up the same way it came from, when it hits my stomach. I hate being home like this. This sucks. I'm not able to do shit, just stay in bed all day - staring at the wall or into my screen, and neither is that fun tbh. Lucky for me, my grandmother stopped by with food that's supposed to "bind" the stuffs in my stomach.. Even tho it sorta failed, it was better than nothing.

And on the bright side we have the fact that it's Tuesday, which equals christmas getting closer and ofc Sunday getting closer! And that's about it.

Meh.. I need to find a movie to watch or something. Cba staring at my facebook "home" page... Nothing's happening anyway - and I sorta, actually, dislike spamming facebook.

Night, and tell me to get well!

Monday, December 20

49 - one hundred sixty eight hours

In one week I'll have my boyfriend here, right next to me. I can't wait! Even tho I spend a lot of time talking to him when he's home and I'm home, it's just not "good enough" sorta :p
But on the bright side this week is going to pass really fast, I got work the three first days, and then there's christmas - family time! Sunday will pop out of nowhere, and before I even know it he'll stand right in front of me at the airport.

Missing someone gets easier every day because even though it's one day further from the last time you saw each other, it's one day closer to the next time you will

One week, seven days, one hundred sixty eight hours, ten thousand eighty minutes. Well.. Actually it's a few less hours, if I'm going to be all precise and stuff - but cba. My math skills don't go that far :p

Anyway.. I'm off to bed now, and ready for this week to just fly by in the blink of an eye! :D

Saturday, December 18

48 - The sharp knife of a short life

Sometimes I feel like death is stalking me, I sometimes feel like everything I touch dies. When I was 4 years old I experienced losing someone who meant the world to me, she used to babysit me all the time - I loved being at her place. She died of cancer, she was too young to go.

A few years later, when I was 8 or 9, I can't really remember 'cause my mind has tried to overwrite it... Someone who should've been close to me died. He was never really a part of my life, but he was and will always be a part of me and who I am.

It didn't take long until I was to meet my "friend" death once again.. I was about 13 years old when the only person I've ever thought of as a real father went into a coma. Knowing that we couldn't save him broke my mom's heart. I forced myself to be her rock that she could lean on, which made it impossible for me to show her that I was hurting too. That's when we moved to Aalesund, to escape everything that reminded us about him.

After moving I honestly thought that I'd be able to live as a normal teenager, but I was wrong. The following 6 years, every summer someone close to me or close to someone really close to me would disappear. Most of my friends have no suffered a great loss. A loss of their best friend(s), a sister, a brother, a mother, a father.

I lost a friend of mine. He died just a few days before his 18th birthday. It came as a shock to all of us who knew him. He was known as a troublemaker, but he was so much more than that. He was a real friend to those who got close to him. He was the guy who always smiled, laughed and made everyone around feel good. We all miss him, and I admit that I still look for him when I'm at the place he spent most of his time.

This all comes down to that I can't decide if I like living in at a small place, where you know of everyone and in 99% of the cases that means that if something happens for good or for worse you'll know it within the next 24 hours, and the chances of you knowing people involved in whatever happened is way too big. And turns out the only things happening here are tragedies.

So to all of you that's ever lost someone... I feel for you, and to my friends: I'm here for you - always.

47 - Together we got good at stopping time

So now it's official, as official as it gets sorta... 
Yay for facebook being what people see as official these days!

I'm in a relationship with my guildmaster.
 mihihi :3

Wednesday, December 15

46 - It's a black top blur, but I'm pretty sure it ruled.

I know I'm late when it comes to listening to albums, I usually listen to one or two songs for like a few months before realizing that I might as well listen to the rest of the album. I've fallen in love with this one:
Katy Perry – Teenage Dream. My favorite songs from that album are: Last Friday Night (T.G.I.F.)Circle The DrainThe One That Got AwayE.T..

And then there's Deadmau5 – 4x4=12, I just love it! On this album I've fallen completely for a song called Raise Your Weapon. I can seriously listen to it thousand times before changing, only to change back.

Oh and.. I'm not going to make any promises here, but I'm sorta playing with the thought of making some sort of "My 2010"-post. We'll see, I guess :b If only my four readers would leave a comment telling me if they want such a post or not :p

Tuesday, December 14

45 - When I'm with you.

You drive me crazy half the time; the other half I'm only trying to let you know that what I feel is true.
I'm only me when I'm with you.

I love you, D.

Thursday, December 9

44 - Don't you dare die on me!

I'm not supposed to blog, I'm supposed to lvl my paladin - but I can't. Been queueing for 2-3 hours now, and I'm still at like 400-something. Yay for Sylvanas being full.

Anyway, I dinged 83 the other day, and that equals a new holy spell, I'm lvling as holy if you didn't get it, [Holy radiance]. So Dennis and I decided to queue for the Deepholm instance so I could try my new heal. Hearts for instant queue, it's pro to queue as tank and healer :d

Anyway we went there, and there is this one guy who sorta hits kinda hard at one point, so Dennis died, and without a tank the whole group started dying, I tried my best to keep the "next best" tank alive, but it was impossible, and before I knew it everyone but me were dead. I went into some sort of panic and started running back towards the beginning of the instance. The boss was getting closer and I freaked out, must have been really funny for Dennis to listen to (we're skyping while questing and lvling). Dennis was almost back inside of the dungeon, and he kept telling me to "hang in there". Oh, I tried... I was nervous and scared, I didn't want to die. So... close... to... the... start... of... the... dungeon...
And Dennis resurrected, with 50% hp he started tanking again, getting back aggro, I healed like a God. And then.. WOOP! A dps was back in the game, and after a while we managed to take down the boss.
Seriously tho.. Kiting him all the way back to the beginning was fu*king scary.
After finishing that instance I was shaking, and filled with that "I NEED A SMOKE - RIGHT NAU"-feeling. And ofc the feeling of being the best healer in the world.

So ye.. Dude... I'm the best healer in the world. B-)

Monday, December 6

43 - Hardcore gamer

I got a few things to share today. I was actually about to post something before I went to bed, but that would've been a really shitty post, considering I was sorta "upset" :p

Yesterday I raided for the first time in my life, ICC10. I actually maybe, kinda, sorta liked a bit. The setup and all wasn't meant for downing Lich King, and we never really thought we'd get that far, but we did. We actually made it to Lich King.. After giving it a few tries we gave up, which is why I was sorta upset last night. I went there with no expectations of even getting to Sindragosa, and we actually killed her. So instead of being angry for not taking down Lich King, I should be glad that we even made it that far. And the group was sorta OK from my point of view, I've heard way too much about PUGs where people just whine about this and that, and there was no whining, so ye.. :) Good first experience with raids I guess.

The other thing I almost mentioned at the beginning... I've been thinking about it all day, at midnight it's the release of Cataclysm! I literally can't wait! So I guess I'll be up all night and stuff.. So I better get a few hours of sleep before the fun starts! :d I've already made sure that I've got enough Coke and chips to last until next year :d

Night! And don't be sitting here hoping for updates later tonight or tomorrow, I'll be gone, busy and so on :d

Sunday, December 5

42 - Changes

I'm currently trying to figure out some stuffz for my blog, um.. I was sorta sick of my old design. Please be patient, and I'll try to get a new design up and running asap :)

I'm hoping that I might actually be able to give you a proper header this time.

41 - Let it snow

The best thing about christmas is the gifts, not the ones you get, but those you give.
And the decorations, I love the pretty lights and glitters.
What I dislike is the shopping part, there's way too many people at the mall looking for the perfect gift.
I haven't even started the christmas-shopping, I don't even know what to get to who.

On the other side, there's no christmas-feeling in my body, head or just anywhere.
I guess the christmas-feeling died after realizing that Santa was a lie.
And then there's the fact that there's been no snow, up until now.
It started snowing today, woho! The question is.. For how long will it stay on the ground?

Friday, December 3

40 - A K O N

Sometimes you just click with a person, it seems like you've got everything in common, you can talk about seriously everything without it getting awkward, and on top of that he finds your lame humor funny. That kind of connection doesn't show itself that often, so I guess when that happens you know that you are meant to be friends, not letting anything get in the way.
Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another: "What! You, too? Thought I was the only one."
Saturday 27. november 15.10: I had a plane to catch
Destination: Sweden.
So I went to the airport after hanging out with my mom in Oslo. I was scared, meeting a guy that became my friend over the internetz (sure as hell a first for me), and not to mention that it was in a different country. I couldn't just jump on a bus and go home if real life made everything weird and I didn't want to be there, I had to stay until my plane left 4 days later. Before entering the part of the airport where there was no point of return I stood there looking at the sign saying "if you enter here, there's no way back" (tbh.. It didn't exactly say that, but that was what I read).

Now there was no way back. I wasn't sure if I really wanted to do this, but I ended up doing it after all. It's not like I regret it, at all.

Here's my gate, where I sat for more than an hour becoming more and more nervous about what would actually happen in Sweden. Would we click just as good in real life? Or would things get totally fucked up?

Yesh. At this point I couldn't go back. But the sky looked amazing, too bad my sucky iPhone wasn't able to catch that... -.-'

I got to the airport, and my heart was racing. I sooo wanted to just turn around, but it was kinda too late for that. When I had my luggage and all I went to meet him. There he stood, looking sorta nervous. The only thing that was going through my head was "No handshake!", he said hi and I went straight for a hug before saying something like "smoke! NAU!"... Not one of my proudest moments tbh. :$
We went for a smoke, started talking and I realized that there never really was any awkwardness between us. We clicked just as good in real life as online. I felt comfortable right away.

Not really a good picture, but this was the view from "my window" or well.. Dennis's window. In the back there's a church, with lights and all.. Prewty.
When we got to Dennis's house we started with talking, before watching A Walk To Remember (one of my top 5 movies of all times!) followed by more talking.

Not sure I would call this "town", but according to Dennis this is town. Look at the prewty christmas lights! :d Just to have said it.. SWEDEN WAS COLD AS HELL... or well... Hell aint supposed to be cold, but ye.. You get what I'm saying.

Geeks :d

We also went to visit Emil, or just E. It was sorta a rape for my ears, Swedish people talk Swedish (just fyi). I felt sorta left out, considering they were talking waaay too fast for me to keep up, and the only things I actually understood was my own name and "AKON" -.-' Cba explaining the AKON-deal.. You're not going to get it anyway (actually I'm not even sure I do). But hey! I had fun, even at E's :)

Because I'm so stereotyp girl I "forced" Dennis to have a photoshoot with me and my Mac, Gunnar. I'm not close to uploading all of the pictures, 'cause tbh... You won't find it as funny as Dennis and I.

Just because I look pro. It's sorta like Good vs. Bad, ofc I'm the bad one :)



As I might have said.. A lot of things happened in Sweden. And one of them being falling for this random Swe-guy, Dennis. I had the best 4 days, and they went by waaahay too fast.

Whatever our souls are made of, his and mine are the same. 
The real story about Dennis and me started this summer, when I was still lvling my paladin. When we first started talking he was just my guildmaster, but as I said.. We quickly became friends, and before we knew it there were sparks between us. It took a few months before we realized that there were sparks, but when we realized it.. We felt like we needed to know if there were something real there, and thinking of my trip to Sweden I think it's safe to say that there's something there :)