66 - Sick of you

My mind is totally empty. There's not a single thought in my head that's usable for a blog post of any kind. I mean... WTF? I used to be pro at coming up with things to write about, but now I can't even think of one thing that might be interesting to write about. On top of feeling kinda sad panda about not being able to blog like I want to, I'm not even able to play like I want to - whenever I try to sit down and play, I end up with doing one BG or HC and then I'm sick of it. I'm sorta in a "place" where I'm sick of everything, I just wanna find something new to do, something fun. I'm sick of being bored with all my hobbies and all.

Good night all. I might be back in a while, but for now I think I'm going to take a break from this. I guess I'll report in if something fun or interesting happens.

65 - One. Congratulations!

I would like to congratulate my beloved friend with her son's first birthday today! Congratulations! It's insane that you've been a mother for a whole year, to me it seems like it was only a few weeks ago you told me you were pregnant. Time flies by!

You've done one hell of an amazing job this far, going through everything you've been through. It only gets better from here, before you know it you're sending him to school! :o I love you both, and I'm always here for you, aunt Vic's gonna babysit whenever needed! :D

Mother and son <3

64 - Something better to do?

I'm not supposed to feel guilty for not blogging, or am I? No, I'm not. I'm supposed to be happy, 'cause in most cases that means that I've got something better to do. My boyfriend is still here, yay! I don't want him to go home - ever. He's my boyfriend, I just want to have him around all the time, wantz to be able to cuddle whenever!
Anyway.. Today we've been eating dinner with my grandmother, omnom. And that's pretty much it. I woke up early, but I went back to sleep around 12 cause I didn't feel good. I'm still sorta not well.

Now I'm busy doing BGs with the boyfriend and Eps :) Later guys!

63 - It's alive!

It's weird how I promised myself I'd reach 100 posts before new years, and here I am, still struggling my way through the 60's. I've got nothing on my mind, and nothing to say. My boyfriend is still here, so blogging isn't first on my list. I rarely even cross my mind.

I've been playing a lot lately, PvPing as usual. Trying to gear up my paladin, but I've also tried to make my hunter reach higher lvls - how's that working out for me? It isn't. I'm waaay to cba to lvl my hunter at the moment. I'd prefer having a lvl 85 priest or warlock - I think.
I've been doing arenas lately! I know! I'm just as surprised as you are, little me... not scared shitless about arena! Dafakk?! But actually I find it interesting, and I wanna learn more about arena, and being good at it.

Questions you might ask yourself when you realize the time I published this post, is she still up? Or did she just wake up? Does she ever sleep? The answers are, I went to sleep around 23, but woke up because of my "dreams" sorta. And yes, I do sleep - sometimes. I can sleep when I'm old or dead. No need to waste so much time sleeping.

Just to remind you how cute we are together.

62 - Give in to me

Leighton Meester <3

and in my ears a really cewsy song :d

61 - Mystery dinner

Getting home after a long and busy day at work, sitting down, watching your boyfriend make dinner is teh proness! My boyfriend is the best in the world, taking good care of me when I'm not feeling a 100%.
So this weekend I'm going to be completely off, stay in bed forever, sleep until I wake up, just relax and get better! I'm tired of not feeling well.

I'll go eat this mystery dinner that my boyfriend's preparing. And I guess I'll let you know that I'm still alive sometime during the weekend. For now.. I'm out :)

60 - In sickness and.. um.. I forgot the other part.. -.-

Today is my day off.. And here I am, dying on the couch. It's not supposed to be like this, a new year, fresh start and a happy ending ffs. Lucky for me I've got the best boyfriend in the world, he made hot chocolate and offered to make breakfast, sorta like "you just stay here, I'll fix!" He's the best!

Meh.. I'm going to gogo feel good now! Cba being home like this :) I haz no taim to wejst on feeling ill and all.

59 - ... and it all turns to dust.

Do you remember how great everything used to be when you were a kid? At some point we stop being kids, we have to leave the people we've been used to seeing every day for the last 10 years, we start going to different schools, meet new people and make new friends. To me it seems like the only ones you'll keep is the ones from your childhood, the ones you've known since you were born. Ofc we promise that nothing's going to change, and that we'll be able to maintain our friendship. I'm not saying it's a lie, 'cause it's not. It's just out of our hands, we're apart, we talk less, get less in common, and then within a few months (maybe even weeks) that friendship is more or less gone - and you're stupid if you think it's as easy as meeting up and pretending like nothing's ever changed.

I often find myself sneaking around on facebook, looking at people I used to consider as my best friends. I can't help going into some sort of emo-trance whenever that happens. I miss most of the people I used to go to school with, the ones I was forced to see every day for 3 years. It was the worst 3 years of my life, the 3 years that changed everything. We all went from being small kids, to being somewhat more adult. Your mind change, your body change, everything changes those 3 years. So I find myself asking: If those people that were everything to you when you went through the biggest changes in your life, how come everything you had just faded away, and now is not even in the back of anyone's mind anymore? We're we just fellow late bloomers? Did we blossom apart?

There's this one girl I remember I used to spend a lot of time with. We did everything together. I haven't spoken a word to her in something like 3 years now. We've said happy birthday on facebook and that's about it. I miss her.

I miss all of you guys. We shared so much, for good and for worse.

58 - Happy new year!

An optimist stays up until midnight to see the new year in. A pessimist stays up to make sure the old year leaves.

Happy new year guys! Be careful tonight, and have fun! I'm just going to stay in with my boyfriend and my "brother", I think we'll be playing most of the time :) So drink a few for me plis :)

57 - All you need is one

Warning: Content might be too lovey-dovey for you. So if your stomach can't handle it, stop reading right away. You've been warned.

I find it weird how one person change everything. You see.. Now that my boyfriend's here, I feel complete. I feel like everything is in place, where it should be. He's only been here since Sunday, yet it actually feels like he's living here, as in living with me. I don't even want to think about the day he's leaving, going back home to Swe-land. This is like one of those dreams you don't want to wake up from, everything is so real, yet so far from reality. Only thing is... This is reality.

Anyway.. Now it's time to slack with the boyfriend, watch Californication and just be. Just breathe the same air, and just be close to each other.

I love you D, I really do. And I'm sorry for complaining about you moving while I'm writing this post, I didn't mean to sound so angry :p

56 - Dear someone

First of all... I'm sorry I didn't invite you over this time, but you are more than welcome to come over with D the next time :) I'll make sure there'll be enough space (as in bed) for you. And you will get the chance to befriend Eps. And I'm sorry for taking your beloved D away from you, it's not to be mean to you - I've learned to care about you (even tho I'm kinda sure you still hate me, just a littlebit).

Second of all... I will dare to speak for the both of us when I say that we're having a great time! When he got here on Sunday, we decided to just stay in, watch half of two movies and just talk. Yesterday we invited Daniel over for tacos, which also was kinda fun. Daniel ended up on the ground, "rolling" around in the snow trying to win a pissing contest about being most retarded, he won - ofc. Today we've been slacking, hanging out with Espen and Daniel. We went to see the mall and "my" McDonalds.

Later tonight I'm making foodz, just to prove that I've got skills. 'Cause obviously some certain people do not think that I'm pro, and that I can actually make something that will not end up killing you - all by myself.

Hope you're doing fine. I think someone's missing you.

xoxo
Vic

55 - Tomorrow (L)

With a new header and design I'm going to bed, sleeping until I have to get up! :D I have to take a shower and fix my makeup and clothes and and and and GOGO pick up a certain boyfriend at the airport!!! I CAN'T WAIT! :D <3<3<3

If you feel like leaving a comment about my design/header, plis do! NIGHT GUYS!

54 - Blake Lively, not so pr0.

My gorgeous boyfriend is arriving tomorrow, and I can't wait! I wish I could just go to sleep now, and wake up tomorrow with him next to me! But I gotta clean my apartment, and fix stuffs before he gets here, so I can't really just go to sleep. Even tho I decided to watch a movie over cleaning :p I can clean later, it's not like I have to do it right now :p

I watched "The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants", in my opinion it was an OK movie. Blake Lively's acting was OK, but everything I see her in she's got the same role, superstar-girl among other high school girls. That makes me ask, can she do anything else? The story and manuscript was also OK, but not even close to being as well written as "The Town". Blake Lively had a small role in that movie too, not her best work, imo. She was playing the girl that seems to get the guys, as usual, but only this time she was broke (instead of being the rich and famous as we're used to see her in Gossip Girl).
I hope I never end up giving movies cred/crap for being good/bad, there will be many angry people in the world if that ever happens.

Bottom line: Blake Lively should try to get her acting together. She might be pr0 in Gossip Girl as the rich and perfect high school girl, Serena, but that's just not enough. Any good actor should be able to do more than just one role.

53 - Merry christmas to you all! :D

I'm leaving now, to see my uncle's daughter aka my youngest cousin. I'm guessing there'll be no time to go home between that and dinner, so I'm leaving for reals. No moar inturnetz fur me for a really long time. But I guess I'll be fine :) I've got my uncle, he's quite the entertainer. And I get to open wrapped gifts!!! Yes, I'm the kid in the family, even my little cousin at the age of 7 is more mature than me when it comes to christmas and gifts. Oh! There goes the doorbell! Gotta run!

So with this picture I'm leaving you to your family.

Have fun, enjoy the food and people.

I know I will.

52 - All I want for christmas is....

To be able to "reinvent" myself, and by that I mean have enough money to throw away all my old clothes, and replace them with treasures like these:

I love this look!

I've always been a huge fan of Gossip Girl's Blair Waldorf, and her style. I wish I could buy all these dresses and matching shoes. So if you would like to donate something to this cause, please do! I need all the help I can get to collect these dresses. *whispering* they're really expensive! 

- All dresses are from http://www.asos.com/

51 - Are goals only meant for aiming?

Thoughts keep running through my head, I'm getting stuck with the bad ones. I hate this time of year, it makes me weak, little and full of dark, depressing thoughts. I shouldn't post such things to my blog, considering it's a public blog - but I find myself doing it, over and over again. It's weird... When I sit down, try to put some words together, hopefully be able to use them for a blog post, English is the one thing that comes naturally to me. I guess I could've written this in Norwegian as well, but it's not the same. I feel like I get to say all the things I need to say when I write in English.
Right now I don't really know what I need to say, or where to go. Every December is like walking in a pitch dark tunnel, not sure if I'm walking in the right direction. There doesn't seem to be a light at the end of the tunnel, or just an end to the tunnel at all. I've been walking here for 10 years now, and I still haven't found my way out. That makes me wonder; will I ever find my way out of this shithole?
My life is, and has always been a mess. I'm a mess. Will I ever be able to figure out what I really want to do in life, and if so - will I ever achieve it? Are my goals just so I've got something to aim for? Or are they for real? Will I ever try to reach them?
I used to believe that we were all put on this planet for a reason, I'm not sure about that anymore. You see.. There's too much wasted talent on this planet. Too much of everything actually. But let's not get off tracks, back to the wasted talents.. I always "knew" that I wanted to be a singer, not for the fame, but because I loved doing it. Singing was the only thing I was certain I knew how to do. I've tried singing competitions, and they're not looking for someone who really wants it, they're just looking for someone to make money from. I don't want to be that person. Am I wasting my talent if I refuse to do something about it, because I don't want to be a sell out that gets her songs from a random record company? I want to be able to write my own songs, but I'm not. The only thing I'm good at is scribbling down my thoughts, like this.
I love writing, and after my 12th year in school I finally got a teacher that "fell in love" with my way of writing. Teachers never really got me, and that made me end up with C's instead of B's or even A's. My 12th year in school I actually aced my Norwegian class and my English class, mostly because of short novels and essays. But I'm not going to be a writer, I could never finish a book - and if I ever did... It would be one hell of a depressing book.
Next year I'm going back to school, and I still haven't completely made up my mind what I want to do. What do I want to study? I've been thinking about something to do with "information and communication technology", which means that I would be working with operation and maintenance of business IT systems, installation, use and maintenance of software, advice, guidance and training in the use of these systems. Summed up pretty quick; service and support when it comes to computers and basically everything that comes with it. But am I right for that kind of work?
I find myself thinking that working as a hairdresser or even a car mechanic is wasting my brain. I actually consider myself as a smart girl, and I want to do something about it. I'd like to expand my horizon, do something unexpected.
I think I slipped off the tracks. This wasn't what I was going to write about, but that's the thing about me blogging, I can write whatever I want to write.

50 - End me nau, thx!

Great.. I'm home with a fever and everything that comes with it. Feels like I'm burning from the inside and out, but yet every bone in my body is frozen. I can't eat, 'cause honestly I feel like it's going to turn around and shoot up the same way it came from, when it hits my stomach. I hate being home like this. This sucks. I'm not able to do shit, just stay in bed all day - staring at the wall or into my screen, and neither is that fun tbh. Lucky for me, my grandmother stopped by with food that's supposed to "bind" the stuffs in my stomach.. Even tho it sorta failed, it was better than nothing.

And on the bright side we have the fact that it's Tuesday, which equals christmas getting closer and ofc Sunday getting closer! And that's about it.

Meh.. I need to find a movie to watch or something. Cba staring at my facebook "home" page... Nothing's happening anyway - and I sorta, actually, dislike spamming facebook.

Night, and tell me to get well!

49 - one hundred sixty eight hours

In one week I'll have my boyfriend here, right next to me. I can't wait! Even tho I spend a lot of time talking to him when he's home and I'm home, it's just not "good enough" sorta :p
But on the bright side this week is going to pass really fast, I got work the three first days, and then there's christmas - family time! Sunday will pop out of nowhere, and before I even know it he'll stand right in front of me at the airport.

Missing someone gets easier every day because even though it's one day further from the last time you saw each other, it's one day closer to the next time you will

One week, seven days, one hundred sixty eight hours, ten thousand eighty minutes. Well.. Actually it's a few less hours, if I'm going to be all precise and stuff - but cba. My math skills don't go that far :p

Anyway.. I'm off to bed now, and ready for this week to just fly by in the blink of an eye! :D

48 - The sharp knife of a short life

Sometimes I feel like death is stalking me, I sometimes feel like everything I touch dies. When I was 4 years old I experienced losing someone who meant the world to me, she used to babysit me all the time - I loved being at her place. She died of cancer, she was too young to go.

A few years later, when I was 8 or 9, I can't really remember 'cause my mind has tried to overwrite it... Someone who should've been close to me died. He was never really a part of my life, but he was and will always be a part of me and who I am.

It didn't take long until I was to meet my "friend" death once again.. I was about 13 years old when the only person I've ever thought of as a real father went into a coma. Knowing that we couldn't save him broke my mom's heart. I forced myself to be her rock that she could lean on, which made it impossible for me to show her that I was hurting too. That's when we moved to Aalesund, to escape everything that reminded us about him.

After moving I honestly thought that I'd be able to live as a normal teenager, but I was wrong. The following 6 years, every summer someone close to me or close to someone really close to me would disappear. Most of my friends have no suffered a great loss. A loss of their best friend(s), a sister, a brother, a mother, a father.

I lost a friend of mine. He died just a few days before his 18th birthday. It came as a shock to all of us who knew him. He was known as a troublemaker, but he was so much more than that. He was a real friend to those who got close to him. He was the guy who always smiled, laughed and made everyone around feel good. We all miss him, and I admit that I still look for him when I'm at the place he spent most of his time.

This all comes down to that I can't decide if I like living in at a small place, where you know of everyone and in 99% of the cases that means that if something happens for good or for worse you'll know it within the next 24 hours, and the chances of you knowing people involved in whatever happened is way too big. And turns out the only things happening here are tragedies.

So to all of you that's ever lost someone... I feel for you, and to my friends: I'm here for you - always.

47 - Together we got good at stopping time

So now it's official, as official as it gets sorta... 

Yay for facebook being what people see as official these days!

I'm in a relationship with my guildmaster.

 mihihi :3